9.21.2009

Dog Days of Summer

One of our favorite ways to bid farewell to summer is to take Payton swimming at the local pool. Prior to draining the swimming pool for the season, the Arnold Pool hosted a doggie swim. Picture lots of dogs running around off-leash -- fetching balls, chasing one another, their tails wagging their bodies in excitment. The thrill of the abundance of rumps to sniff! Doggie bliss!

Excited dogs who run too fast don't make for good photography.

Greta seemed to enjoy watching all the crazy dogs running around.

Buddies.
See how tuckered out Payton is?
That's what happens when you fetch a ball for an hour straight.




Mama & Greta chose to stay dry and watch the *festivities* instead of participating.


**Festivities were not limited to dog-watching at the doggie swim.
Sometimes there's people to be watched as well.

9.17.2009

Chasing Babies

We've been quite busy here at the Walter house lately. Three weeks ago, I started watching a friend's little boy during the weekdays. Henry is nine months old, and he's a sugar pie. I love that Greta has the opportunity to interact with another little person, someone other than mama and Payton the dog.

Greta seems to like Henry. Especially if he has something she wants. Like a toy she used to play with when she was four months-old and hasn't had interest in for MONTHS. It's now her favorite thing. BECAUSE HE WAS PLAYING WITH IT.

And the girl who rarely ever took a binky? Well, she's now developed a new-found affinity for them. She likes to slyly befriend the unknowing, innocent boy. She gets real close to him, bats her eyelashes and then goes in for the kill: quickly snatching his binky outta his little mouth and promptly plucking it right into her own like it was hers to begin with.

But she likes to give it back to him, too. SOMETIMES. Thank God, the little guy is such a trooper and just rolls with the punches. He has quickly learned to play her game right back, and when they're sitting side-by-side in the double stroller, he'll snatch her sippy cup and snacks like it's the last food on earth. (The boy is an EATER!)

Greta also enjoys stealing Henry's bottle. She's a breastfed baby and doesn't seem too interested in drinking the formula inside; she mainly wants to chew on the bottle's nipple. And to have what Henry has. And to wave it in his face, like SEE THIS BOTTLE. Yeah, it's yours. But it's mine now. And you can't crawl yet so you can't get it from me.

And this is when the girls-chasing-boys game begins, I guess?

8.31.2009

Lisa Leonard Loot

I love Lisa Leonard's jewelry.

And I love me some free stuff.
Simple Mom is doing a giveaway
for $50 towards one of Lisa's pieces.
If you've never seen her stuff, you must.
Go check it out.

8.30.2009

Go Green. Recycle a cow.

Buy this lovely little lady here.

8.29.2009

Kick-Ass Kitchen

One of Greta's favorite things to do is to play with the kitchen she received as a birthday gift. She mainly enjoys taking out the sink and hauling it around the house and hiding the fork and spoon in odd places like in our bathroom or in my shoes in my closet. Here's Greta playing with her cousin, Ella, just a couple months ago. They look a little perturbed that I dared to interrupt their playtime with taking a picture. THE NERVE OF ME!

I was inspired to write this post by a recent blog entry that I came across, featuring a television entertainment center repurposed as a play kitchen. I may be 31 years-old, but I'm a bit jealous of the kiddos who get to play with this fun concoction. Check it out!

8.24.2009

What Mama Does When She's Away to Play

I went to a three-day crop at For Keeps Sake this past weekend. It's always nice to get away for a bit and have some time to myself, although I sure do miss the little rugrat, but that only makes it that much sweeter to return home.

I've never posted my work online before, but I thought I'd give it a shot. The photos aren't the best, but aw, well.







8.20.2009

I'm figuring it out.

I love quotes. I collect them. When I find one I like, I write it down in a little book that I keep. I just found one that really struck a cord with me. It's by Anais Nin.

"We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection."

Last week I wrote a post, attempting to delicately express my frustrations of a seemingly non-existent audience and about my apprehension to continue blogging. Or maybe I was just whining about feeling underappreciated. I don't know. But I do know this: maybe I don't know the sole purpose of my blog and I don't always have a particular focus; but I DO NOT blog to feel appreciated. That is definitely not the reason I write. It never has been. I've always written for me. Because I like it. Because it feels good to write. And I feel like the truest most authentic form of ME when I write.

Nin's quote reminds me of why I blog. And also of why I want to blog more.

I'm loving life right now, and I want to savor it. Blogging helps me do that.

8.19.2009

Impressed

I keep meaning to post more about Greta's birthday -- maybe some photos and maybe a little 411 on how we celebrated the big day. Truth is, we just keep getting further and further from the date (July 6), so I keep putting off writing about it.


Here's a little "taste" -- a little look-see at the invitations I made for Greta's first birthday party. The theme was ice cream. Greta loves ice cream, and frankly, so do Eric and I. (Um, who doesn't like ice cream? Well, I'll answer that -- Greta's Poppy doesn't like ice cream, but that is because he exercises, eats well and makes other healthful lifestyle choices. And he's trim and in shape. Skinny people don't like ice cream. Fat people do. Well, fat people and apparently children. I digress...)

It took me quite a bit of time to make these invitations. Lots of time shopping for the perfect paper, cutting and gluing and all that. Thank God for my mother-in-law. She likes to get her craft on every once in a while. I think the time spent was well worth it. In the end, I was quite proud of the result.

In fact, I was so proud of my invitations that I decided to enter my work into a contest. And guess what!?! I won! There's a little shop called Impress Rubber Stamps. I sent them one of my invitations, and a few weeks later, I was greeted by a surprise package at my front door. I'm not sure what I was more excited about -- the fun contents of the box or the fact that I'd won something!

8.18.2009

Splish Splash

We've been keeping busy these days, enjoying the August days of summer. Greta loves the water...

with Daddy @ the pool


Scrubbin' in the tub


First time @ The Lake of the Ozarks


Loving the fountains


@ the City Garden

8.08.2009

World's Worst Blogger?

One of my favorite all-time favorite hobbies is going to the movie theatre to catch a film on the big screen. Last night, I decided I was long overdue for some fun me-time, so I went and saw the movie Julie and Julia. The movie intertwines the lives of the famous chef, Julia Child, and Julie Powell, a young woman who decides to follow Child's cookbook, Mastering the Art of French Cooking, and then blog about her cooking experiences.

Powell's blog has a purpose. And that purpose is to showcase various Julia Child recipes over the course of 365 days. Powell's blog attracts an audience mainly of friends and family but over time draws a sturdy readership of foodies. Powell's blog has a target audience. She has a reason to blog.

This is why I think that I am such a bad blogger. I don't have a target audience, and I don't have a specific purpose. I've loved to write since I was a young child. And while blogging provides an outlet for me to creatively express my thoughts, it sometimes feels like a chore. It's not a chore because I don't enjoy it. Like I said, writing has always been my passion. I think it feels like work because I don't know what to say. I don't know WHO I'm aiming at or who I'm talking to. Frankly, I feel like how Powell felt in the movie, when she first started blogging. I don't know if anyone reads what I write, and it's not like I just do it for the sake of other people, but since I don't think anyone reads, I don't feel any sort of accountability. It's like, why bust my butt to write an essay -- albeit however enjoyable the subject matter - if there are no professors or other students in the class?

Another thing that makes me such a bad blogger? My tendency to ramble.

7.28.2009

Greta's Newest Friends

Greta & Maddie, our neighbor's new puppy. She surprisingly seemed unphased by the needle-sharp puppy teeth that gnawed on her little fingers and ears. Greta & Her Cousin, Ella -- They're just getting to the age where they're interested in each other and are starting to play with one another. Here they are having a bake-off, showing the other who's the better chef.
Greta & Mama's Friend, Paula -- This is one of my friends that I don't see often enough, but when I do, I feel like we just pick up right where we last left off. I was so excited for Greta to meet her. I want Greta to grow up learning that friends like Paula are priceless!





7.22.2009

Things to Do

I'm behind on quite a few things... Need to:

  1. Finish writing thank you notes for Greta's birthday gifts
  2. Blog about Greta's birthday
  3. Post photos of Greta digging into cake
  4. Blog about so many other things
  5. Stop spending time making lists of what I need to do and instead just DO some of those things on the things to do list.

7.20.2009

Home

This hallway -- it leads to the special care nursery at Missouri Baptist. After having Greta, I remained in the hospital for about a week while the doctor's worked on getting my blood pressure under control. Post-C-section, I slowly walked it multiple times a day to visit Greta. I was in a lot of pain from having my abs cut open and reassembled, but I would have ran this hallway, if I had to. It was like a race, and the prize awaiting at the end was far better than any gold medal or other honor.


This evening marks a year to the date, that I walked this long hallway for the last time.


Here we are, outside the hospital just before going to pick up Greta to bring her home!It was Sunday, July 20, 2008. I HAD to take my notorious "self-portrait" because I just HAD to document us as just two. In just a short time, we'd be three. We were so darn giddy that we were bringing home our baby!


A year ago tonight, we disconnected all the wires and monitors that Greta had been attached to for 14 days.



We carefully dressed her in a tiny preemie outfit about the size of Eric's hand. She didn't even weigh 5 pounds. We packed up all her little things, and we prayed she wouldn't cry on the ride home. (She didn't). I yelled at Eric the entire ride home. Of course. I sat in the back seat with Greta. I kept telling Eric to slow down. And to drive better. WE HAD A BABY IN THE CAR, DAMNIT.


Our camera broke while we were at the hospital packing up Greta. Anyone who knows me and how obsessed I am with photography knows that put me in a little tizzy.

Luckily, just before calling it quits, the camera went out with a bang. Here's one of my favorite photos of my entire life.


This message is scattered because I've written it so quickly. I've got a beautiful baby sleeping in her crib and a husband out on our deck, who is waiting with wine and cheese so that we can celebrate our little family at home.

7.06.2009

Happy Birthday, Greta

Greta turned one today. It was a beautiful day and we celebrated lots. I'm too tired to write anything meaningful right now, so instead, I'm going to share a poem of sorts that I found in a scrapbooking store a few months ago. (It's by Creative Imaginations.) Until I can piece together a better entry, I think this says it perfectly...

Dear You,

Your story is one which starts at home in the hearts that love you.

On this special day, you entered the world.

The beginning of the first chapter in which your novel begins.

All the paths of your future and your past began on this day.

This day is dedicated to you and your life.

On this day, we reminisce and relive the special moments along the way as part of who you are.

We loved you instantly, yet more strongly with every minute that passes.

So it is with joy and celebration that we embrace this day and celebrate the journey of who you are and who you dream to become.

Most of all we are thankful for the gift of you.

Happy birthday!


Happy birthday, baby girl. Thank you for the best year of my life!

7.04.2009

When It All Started

Today marked one year since I was admitted to the antepartum unit and placed on hospital bedrest. July 3, 2008. My blood pressure was out of control and my doctors wanted to monitor me and the baby.


I remember going to the ob's office that morning for a routine 33-week appointment. I was really swollen and was sick of going to work and being uncomfortable. At that time, I didn't realize that the reason I felt so crappy was because I had preeclampsia. I secretly hoped that upon examining my tight, swollen skin on my legs and (c)ankles, my doctor would tell me I couldn't return to work. (I hated my job.)

Never did I expect that instead the doctors would insist I go down a floor and be admitted into the hospital. To say the least, it was a stressful time. I didn't cry because, to be honest, I was in shock more than I was in fear. Complete shock. I wasn't supposed to be having a baby until August 18th.

A couple times today as I was busy making decorations for Greta's upcoming first birthday party, I couldn't help but pause and take a few moments to appreciate the many blessings of this past year and realizing the the full circle I'm quickly rounding.
And I cannot help but think that if I would have known then what I could have possibly been losing - this little spunky girl that has become my whole world - there's no doubt in my mind that I would have been uncontrollably devastated and afraid.

6.26.2009

Realizations

I feel like I'm liberal in so many ways. And then in others, I feel so conservative, like maybe I just have a big stick up my ass and need to loosen up a little. There's really no rhyme or reason to all the whys of how I feel about certain things. I'm just a quirky girl. And that's just the easiest way to describe me.

I picked up my 15 year-old niece this afternoon, and while we were driving back to my house, there was a song playing on the radio, and she knew every lyric. I turned up the volume on the car stereo, and I asked her if this was Flo Rida, feeling all up-and-with-it for even knowing who Flo Rida was. She was all, no this is Jeremih, and it's called Birthday Sex.

And I just felt old because I couldn't help but think, this is legal to play this on public radio??? I mean, I'm all for freedom of speech, but, really? Really, do they need to broadcast a song that promotes getting screwed on your boyfriend's sofa in lieu of a cake with candles and other birthday gifts? Just for the record, kids, CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH BUTTERCREAM ICING IS WAY BETTER THAN SEX.

Within this same hour, there's two men delivering the decking composite to my house. Unsure of where to have them put the lumber, I called my husband at work. Meanwhile, I'd invited one of the men in to the house because it's 90+ degrees outside, and I didn't want him to wait on my front porch in the sweltering heat. So, there I was, standing at my back sliding glass doors, next to the delivery guy, waiting for my husband to answer the telephone call. We were looking out over the backyard, discussing where to put the decking materials.

And I said, "This air sure feels good up my dress." I was standing directly over the air vent, and while those were in fact my very thoughts, I sure as hell should have kept my mouth shut. How very inappropriate, and how embarassing.

I'm 31 years old and still so often trying to figure out who I am as a person, and the more and more I think I know, I always throw myself for a loop when I do things like these, acting like a prudish slut with multiple personalities.

Or something like that.

6.25.2009

Kate Gosselin & Michael Jackson

Very random thoughts.

Actress Farrah Fawcett died earlier today after a battle with cancer. Later in the day, pop star Michael Jackson died unexpectedly of a heart attack.

As I thumbed through the most recent issue of People magazine, it occurred to me that the next issue would most likely be graced with a large photograph of the legendary moon walker accompanied by a smaller side note mentioning the death of the ex-Charlie's Angels star.

And then it dawned on me. For the first time in over a month, neither Kate or Jon Gosselin would be THE headline news. (After the stress of announcing their plans to divorce on the most recent episode of Jon and Kate Plus Eight, I imagine they need a little break from the spotlight!)

Kate Gosselin is 34 years old, just a few years older than I am, which makes me think she probably grew up watching Charlie's Angels and listening to Michael Jackson. When thinking all this, I could not help but chuckle because do you think she ever in million years thought she'd be making headline news repeatedly, being featured on multiple magazine covers -- only to be replaced by the deaths of such icons?!?

Yes, random thoughts.
I know.

6.23.2009

Because I'm a Lady Like That

Here's a little conversation that occurred between Eric and me earlier this evening. What prompted this dialogue was me farting. On purpose. Yep, I said it, so there. I'm not one of those people who excuses themselves to go "pass gas" in another room. Yeah, shame on me.

So, we're in the kitchen, and Eric is putting away dinner, and I'm checking e-mail on the laptop while sitting on a stool at our island counter. Here's the conversation prompted by the preceding fart:

Me: I'd better stop doing that in front of Greta because she's gonna figure it out. She's now old enough that she will look at me if I make a noise when I fart.

Eric leans over on the counter, like he's going to tell me a very important secret and gestures with his finger for me to come closer so that I can hear this very important secret.

Eric (in a hushed tone): Guess what? I know what you're doing. I've figured it out.

His way of saying, do us all a favor and don't fart in front of the baby. OR HIM.

6.21.2009

Happy Father's Day, Eric


As much as I may bitch about him, I couldn't have asked for a better dad for Greta.

6.08.2009

Eleven-Month-You

Dear Greta,

You.
Today you are 11 months and two days old. Your hair is strawberry blonde. In some light, it looks just light brown. To me at least. More times than not, when we're out and about running errands, there's always at least one stranger who comments, "Look at that red hair!"

The red hair comes from my mom's side of the family. Unfortunately, your grandma is quite sick, and we don't talk to her often. Sometimes, I like to reminisce on who she used to be. Old photographs of her captivate my curiosity. I'm drawn to the beautiful pearly white smile, the flawless porcelain skin, and her stunning red hair.

You captivate me even more so.

Your eyes are bright blue, and they dance when you laugh. They're pure and sparkly, and they take me back in time because they're the same blue eyes as my dad's and his mom's. Your grandpa died nine years ago. I miss him. But I see him in you. Completely. The first time I saw you, my first thought was that you looked exactly like my dad. I remember feeling so blessed in that moment and so ... not alone. It's hard to describe, but there I was in the hospital, living thtough one of the most difficult experiences of my life, and there was this new little person who was all mine, and she looked like the one person I missed the most.

You.

You started crawling at the end of April, and you went from zero-miles-per-hour, snail's pace immobile to lightening fast super crawler. You haven't sat still since.

You love to explore. You love to continuously openandshut openandshut openandshut openandshut cabinets, and you love to look out the window overlooking our backyard. Sometimes you lick the glass window pane. And sometimes you carry things in your mouth when you're crawling. You like to play in the dog's water dish, and you have even snuck in a taste or two of her kibble. I sometimes wonder if you think you are a dog?

You love to put everything in your mouth.
You keep mama busy.

Two weeks ago, after much anticipation, two teeth sprouted through your bottom gums. You're now obsessed with running your little tongue over the jagged edges, and sometimes it reminds me of an old lady who forgot to put in her dentures. I mean that in the most endearing of ways. Really.

At this point, pureed foods MUST be fed to you via spoon via Mama or Daddy. Left to your own devices, you'd surely get food everywhere BUT your mouth. You enjoy feeding yourself Gerber dissolvable puffs and other little crunchy foods made for babies. And, each day, you get better and better at mastering drinking from the sippy cup.

You love ice cream. You love yogurt. You're a pretty good eater and do well with trying new foods. When you're full or don't like something, you vigorously shake your head "no."

Oh, you like cheese puffs, too.

You like them A LOT.

You hate hate hate when we wipe off your hands after you've eaten. You've learned to squeal in disdain. By the screeching sharp sound emitted from your mouth, one would think we were pinching you with electrically-charged clamps or something. Oh the drama that is involved in cleaning you off after eating.

You don't care much for binkies, and your favorite toy is Sophie the Giraffe. You like to play with my papers and anything else that is just within your reach. You think that EVERY thing is for Miss Greta Laine.

You've learned to pull off the headband bows with which I've decorated and adorned your sweet noggin since you were born. I knew you wouldn't tolerate being dressed like a doll forever.

You like to pull off people's sunglasses and eye glasses from their faces. I bought you your own pair of shades but you've no interest in them. Go figure.

You still nurse. About four or five times a day. Everyone asks when I plan to stop. I don't know. You still take two naps a day. You don't often sleep through the night. You usually wake up about once to eat, but you're pretty-much strictly business because you wake up, cry to get my attention, eat and then fall right back asleep.

Despite my horrible singing voice, you like to be sang to and you love going to music class. I love watching you clap your hands and bob your head and body to the music. And it's super cute to see your face light up when you recognize a familiar song.

You're smart. I stare at you and can see the wheels churning in your brain as you soak up the world.

You're happy. The smiles have turned so big.
I cannot get enough.

You're healthy.
You now weigh 18 and a half pounds, and you've only been sick once.

You're a lover. You never cuddled or snuggled when you were a younger baby, but in the past couple months, you've won me over a million times more so just by laying your little head on my shoulder and wrapping your little arm around my shoulder. Sometimes you'll run your fingers through my hair, and it's just the sweetest thing.

You're intrigued by new people and love to stare at new faces. You're quite the serious child until you warm up and then you're nothing but silliness and love.

This letter is a ramble and not the best-written, but I wanted to write about you, about who you are right now as an 11 month-old baby, learning to toddle, loving to gibber jabber, growing right before my very eyes. I wanted to get these thoughts down on paper because although the thoughts are not fleeting, the moments, unfortunately, certainly are.

You and Me.

Always,
Mama